have you seen me?

This was me a year and a half ago... At that point, I'd been living a new lifestyle for almost three months. That lifestyle did not include my dear friends sugar, white flour or anything fast/overly processed. I felt amazing! My somewhat chronic headaches were gone, my skin was clear, I had tons of energy and required less sleep, I was more happy than ever, and I felt powerful. The cherry on that big sundae of goodness was that I'd also lost 25 pounds.

All great stories must eventually come to an end. The end of this one had many factors, the biggest being frustration at no additional weight loss and a new boss that I did NOT get along with at all. I started allowing the foods that I'd been so good about keeping away and I started gaining the weight back. I gained back all the weight that I'd lost and they brought about 15 friends along with them. Sigh.

My reality is that now I'm bigger than I've ever been before and I hate it. I want the happy, powerful, energetic, ME back. And at risk of being vain, I want to be cute again. I want the double chin to say it's final goodbyes. I want my skin to clear up. I want the boobs to shrink some more. I want to smile constantly like I found myself doing back then...

So, I'm starting over. I'm going to try cutting out sugar, flour, and processed crap again. I'm going to exercise. I'm going to give it my all. I have to. I remember how amazing I felt. People often commented that they could never restrict their eating as much as I did, but I honestly loved every minute of it. Wish me luck as I embark on this path again.

(I'm going to have a "Weigh-In Wednesday" post each week where I talk about my successes and failures. I'll talk mostly about my diet, but I'll also talk about other things that I'm working to change as well. I'm ready to make my life what I want it to be!)


Melinda said...

Weigh to go, Emily! I am so proud of you! I have been feeling the same way you are. I love that picture you posted. You looked hot with dark hair! It is hard to stick to a diet and exercise when you have stress in your life and food is a great way to escape and reward yourself, not to mention medicate with. I have been eating c-r-a-p lately and have gained weight. I can't do what you're doing. I have to have some of that stuff, but I need to limit it. I am going to start writing down everything I eat. I want to take walks with the baby when we get him, partly so I can use my stroller, and I want to get those resistance bands to help me work out and tone some muscle. I hate working out in public, so I think I will stick with those things. We have also been thinking about Wii Fit, but I am too cheap to pay for that when there are so many other ways we could spend the $$. I am excited for your Weigh in Wednesday! I love reading your blog. I really should do more with mine. You're awesome. You have my full support!

Meg :: Bode22 said...

Good for you! I'm excited to hear about your progress. Perhaps it will even inspire me to stop eating so much darned ice cream. :)

Emily said...

Thanks Melinda! :)
I've never been an emotional eater, but I turned to food when I had to deal with that boss of mine. If I were a drinker, I'd have been sauced the WHOLE time. I tend to skip meals, actually. I'm excited to start. The house is almost clear of anything bad and the scale this morning was DEFINITE motivation to change my ways.